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To me, being depressed is that gut-wrenching feeling that nothing can fill the hollowness in your heart as its seams rip apart, because hundreds of thousands of fine needles are viciously and mercilessly and constantly stabbing holes that represent every single one of your perceived failures or disappointments - and you can’t even find the energy to care anymore.

It’s feeling so, so lonely that you have to leave a room full of people, because you’re simply too tired to keep up appearances, to paste smiles on your face and continue making witty remarks when you’re feeling that horrible. 

It’s people telling you that it’ll be okay, that it’s okay to feel what you’re feeling, that things will get better, that you should look at the bright side of things - and you nod, smile, and they leave - and then you can cry, so at least you’ll feel something other than your friends’ pity and concern.

It’s bringing yourself to tell your friends about what makes you sad, why you’re so unhappy, but then hating yourself afterwards for putting your burden on their already heavy load. And after they tell you that they’re there for you, that they’ll always be, you ask yourself, what’s the point anyways?  

It’s staying in bed all day, staring at the ceiling and doing nothing, not because doing nothing is what you want to do, but because you lack conviction or motivation to do anything else. And when you finally discover a spark of motivation, apathy smothers it immediately and replaces it with guilt and self-disgust.

It makes me wonder what’s wrong with myself, which nuts and bolts went haywire in my mind, which neurons became defective and just stopped responding. And hours, maybe days later, I’ll go back to trying to pull myself together, back into action, to stop being so tired.

Sometimes, when I hear people say “I’m depressed”, I wonder if they really are depressed, or if they’re feeling sad. “Depressed” is really a poor substitute for “sad” or “upset” - but I can’t presume to know or understand what other people feel.

But this is what goes through in my mind when I’m depressed.

Depressing, no?

As annoying as APhiO gets sometimes, I am still grateful for everything it has given me. I know that getting a Lil Bro is just a little part of the whole experience, but I have to say, I’m especially thankful for my lil bro. Now I have both a biological little brother and a non-biological brother! :D

Anyways, I just wanted to say that I appreciate my Lil Bro (both of them, lolz).

WHY DO PEOPLE NEED TO PLAY loud/repetitive/pounding/annoying MUSIC AT 2:30AM……?

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stupid neighbors. I bet this is revenge for our stupid birds yelling every morning.

awesomeeee

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Just some random thoughts on how much time I have per week, not counting weekends. How I spend my week:

24 hours x 5 = 120 hours a week total.

- 40 (8 hours of sleep x 5)

- 13 (avg. of 2.5 hours a day for food/cooking/eating with people)

- 12 (class time per week)

- 6 (internship time per week)

- 7.5 (about 1.5 hours traveling time on bus, walking to class, waiting for classes, etc. per day)

- 7.5 (1.5 hours a day total for shower, bathroom stuffs, getting ready, brushing teeth, etc.)

- 5 (ideally 1 hour a day exercising)

- 5 (avg. of 1 hour misc. a day: getting lost, shopping, texting, email, writing down stuff, emergencies, etc.)

- 4 (misc. Aphio, hangout with friends, frisbee games, reading, making pillows, etc.etc.etc.)

= 20 hours.

So I’m taking 3 classes. They suggest at least 2 hours a day per class, so I really should be doing 6 hours of studying a day.

Because there’s only 20 hours left, that’s 4 hours per day that should be spent studying. 

Ah. So that’s where all my time goes. Well, at least there are weekends….to catch up on the 10 hours of studying that isn’t done during the week. Lol, and my schedule isn’t really even that bad compared to other people’s…

IS THAT A FOOT?! :D

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every day at internship! :P

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LOL. All of the above, except for sloppy drunks.

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pleatedjeans:

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So Forever 21 had a BOGO free sale…..and I spent $45. But man, it was such a great deal! 15 things even out to be about $3 each:

- 5 for $10 underwear

- 2 sleep shorts

- 2 tank tops

- 2 tunic dresses

- 1 cardigan

- 1 top for myself

- 1 top for my housemate

- 1 nice pair of shorts

Dunno why I’m so excited to be spending this much money. :X

—President Obama in North Carolina today on why Congress has to act to prevent interest rates on student loans from doubling (via barackobama)

how about we stop raising fees so we won’t get buried in debt and have to wait til we’re president of the united states to pay off our debt?

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Incorrect. The density of the human body is about 90-95% of the density of water. Since the Titanic sunk in cold, sea water let’s assume : human body / water density = 0.9 . Let’s assume Rose weighs 45kg. Since density is calculated as : density = mass / volume. We can easily understand that volume = mass/density. Cold water density is about 1.0 x 10^3 kg/m^3, which means that human density is 0.9 x 10^3kg/m^3. This leads us to the calculation of Rose’s volume : volume = 45kg / 900kg /m^3 = 0.05 m^3. Now let’s take a look at the piece of wood she is using to stay out of the water. It is about 2 meters in length, 0,75 meters in width (average) and 0,1 meters in height. This means that the volume of the wood is : volume = 2 x 0,75 x 0,1  = 0,15m^3. Since wood density (assuming wood is still dry, which is the very best possibility) is about 75% the density of water, we can calculate its weight : weight = 0,15 x 750 = 112, 5 kg. The total weight of Rose and the piece of wood is 45kg + 112,5 kg = 157,5kg. The total volume is 0,05 + 0,15 = 0,2m^3. This means the total density  is : density = 157,5 / 0,2 = 787 kg/m^3. Since the total density is about 79% the density of water, 21% of the volume of the system Rose + wood is out of water. Rose’s volume is about 25% of the total volume (0,05 over 0,2).  This means Rose is basically out water. Let’s think about Jack now. I will skip all the calculation, but assuming Jack weighs 75kg, the total density of the system is now about 83% of the density of water. This means that less than the 20% of Jack + Rose + wood is now out of the water. Since (by calculating volume as done before) the volume of Jack + Rose is about 43% of the volume of the system, this means that Jack and Rose are now half submerged in the cold water of the north Atlantic Ocean. You lose your body heat about 25 times faster in water than in the air. You can now make your own conclusions. Any discussion ? Hit me up : @yourhomegirlbd

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REBLOGGING ONLY FOR THE CALCULATION ROFL

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apos2k10:

Thank you, everyone, for such a great term. :)

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Memory lane! lol.